Just me

This morning was quite b usy. Heather couldn't watch Naima because Krystal (friend) had her baby boy this morning. Cameron Johnson, 5lbs 14oz and 19 inches. This little guy was born 3 weeks early, but is healthy as a horse. I cannot wait to meet him!!

Therefore, I had to get Naima ready. I was so nervous, and anxious. We were finally out the door by 12:30pm. Unfortunately, Naima didnt have her morning nap, otherwise she would have slept until 1pm.
We waited at the institute for about 20 mins, until Ms. Roxana (the lady who interviewed me) tabbed my shoulder and greeted me with an accent. At first, I could tell she was hispanic, but didn't want to ask if she was mexican (I know if someone asked me that, I would get upset), so I let it slip by. She quickly asked me where I was from (I guess I have an accent now too) "Originally from Chile ..." "*gasp*" looks at her employees ...."She's from Chile!!" Of course, I look at them bewildered ... "I am from Chile too!" *speaks Spanish* She immediately starting telling every employee that I'm Chilean (and quite proud of it) I felt like a celebrity, all that is missing is the paparazzi! Ok ok ok, well not that much, but everyone was surprised.
She showed me the institute, which is above the salon, in the second floor (awesome, stairs!!!) Apparently the school is getting renovated, so it was quite messy and dull. Everyone greeted Naima with their own baby talk. It was funny. Meet the instructor of the cosmetology department, very nice lady. I love how every student has their own unique hairstyle, I cant wait to get mine!!
The interview was short but sweet ... or sweet but short ... anyway, it went awesome, I'm liking the school more and more. I may find out by the end of the week or next week if I get accepted. I want this so badly, I want my career, I want to do what I love, and always wanted to for such a long time!! I feel a huge relief after the interview (oh yes, and my little Naima bear was such a good little girl, no fussyness or anything). Glad thats over, but now I have to write an essay about why I chose this profession and what not. I shall show it to you in another post once I am done.

This is awesome!! Keep your fingers cross!

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Oh boy, oh dear, oh brother ... OH CRAP!!!!

Yeap, my interview is tomorrow at 1pm. Heather is going to be caring for Naima while I am gone
... am I excited? You bet! Am I nervous? *nervous laugh* hehehe, yeah ....
I have everything ready, I got my portfolio (yes, I have kept all pictures of people I have done their hair and make-up ... just in case), my documents, my personal information, my questions, my answers and my nails (what? I'm a girl, duh!). And, I went shopping for an outfit ... I decided to go with this look:

Très moi (very me). I already have the brown shoes, matching purse and pants. I needed the top and vest. I got one similar to this one. I will take a picture of moi when I am all dressed for success! I love that saying ...

Alright, please please please keep me in your thoughts, wish me luck!!!

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I don't know what to blog for this week ... so many things have happened (good and bad) but, nothing extremely exciting ... at least not some that I need to brag about.

Oh, I have an interview with the school administrator next Wednesday!! And by the end of the week, I will know if I got accepted. But I know (and hoping) I am. I may start school sooner than I thought. There is space for more students for the November program (THAT'S 3 MONTHS!!). I am so excited. The classes are daytime though:
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Cosmetology
Length: 1500 Hour(s)
Schedule: 42 weeks
Full Time: 9 a.m./5 p.m.
Days: Tuesday through Saturday
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I have decided not to put Naima in a daycare centre (mainly because there is no way I can afford it, specially when I won't be having a full time job) instead I will put her in care of my closest friend mommy Heather (she has an 11 month old baby girl named Marissa, who is also Naima's best friend, as you can see here) And I have seen her with her daughter, she is a great mom, she has great motherly skills that I know I can trust.

I desperately need to go on a shopping spree. My clothes are baggy! Nothing fits right, they're all loose and makes me look bigger than I am. I'M A SIZE 4! I'm not a size 12 anymore! Yay! Yep, today there was proof how much weight I lost, I fit into a size 4 - pair of Levis jeans (and my bum is smaller, but still looks hot - haha) So, next weekend is Mami's day of shopping - well, actually I'm only getting a new pair of jeans, but it is still exciting to me.

I am happy, I have food in my fridge, Naima's necessities are stocked, I am good for another month and a half. I had a little extra in my wallet and decided to get something new for my little girl ... and I think I went a little crazy:

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I'm rich! I am very fortunate! Today I realized how fortunate I really am. Not financial wise, family and friends wise. Prayers from everyone, God is who looking after me. Oh yes, He is with me. I'm happy where I am, I'm happy to have family and friends who love me for who I am and what I have become. Now, I can breathe, now I can continue my path that I have chosen, and I will stick to it, all the way to the end. Nothing can bring me down, nothing can tell me "You can't do this!" Because I can, and I will, no matter what. I have my goals and I am going to fight to accomplish them. And I know I am not alone in this journey. I am not scared anymore, I feel stronger, powerful, so full of life. With my daughter by my side, nothing can defeat me, not even you. I'm ready to take on this world, and hit a home run. I feel so alive!

It's amazing how many experiences there are in one's life, different experiences. Not all of them good, but that's life. We must learn to deal with it's highs and lows. Maybe not understand it at first, but in the end you realize why certain events happen in your life. And you learn from them. You learn from your mistakes. Everyone makes them, no one is perfect. The human being is not perfect. There is not such thing.
It is difficult to think with your mind when your heart has a mind of its' own. Who do we listen to? Making actions without thinking, or thinking ahead of time before making certain actions, it all has its' ups and downs. There are no better ways or worse ways to live our lives. We just live it as we believe, with God upon us, guiding us through it, with faith and hope.
As you get older you understand the meaning of your actions you did in the past. You must always forgive yourself, analize and comprehend what you did. Then you move onto the next step in your life, picking up the pieces. Finding yourself , setting goals, working hard, in the end you know it will be worth it. If you've chosen to accomplish a goal, and you finish it, but you realize it's not what you wanted to accomplish, you should feel proud, because you made thus far. If you want, you can take another path and continue to the end. The important thing is, never end half way of your goal, go on, finish it! Don't waste energy setting on a goal, getting there half way then turning back, because something got difficult. Fight it, go at it or have at it!

These words were said to me by my father. I announced that I've decided to enroll in an institution called Aveda. I have set my goal and I am going to accomplish it, not just for my daughter, but for myself. I cannot wait to take on the world!

With this feeling of power, I will lay my head and rest to sleep, for tomorrow is another day. Another day to live and cherish every moment with my offspring, knowing that I have yet to fight a battle within myself and God is there to protect me.

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I know not many people may read this, and if anyone does, I'd appreciate you leave a comment about what you think. Doesn't matter what it is about, just leave one.
So this is my spot, my little blog where I can type my thoughts and ramblings about my life, the way I see it, and how I live it. Unlike the other blog, this one will only be about myself ... but I may slip in a few things about my daughter. I can't help, I'm a proud momma! Anyway, off to my first rambling ...

My week has been awful. I've been sick for almost a week now, and my throat is still sore. I spent 2 days ... no 3 days in bed, only digesting liquids. But the bright side is, I lost 3 dress sizes, yay! I know that may not be the healthiest way to lose it but it wasn't my fault. I wasn't able to swollow solid foods. therefore lost some of the weight. Right now, I still get headaches and sore throat, but by Wednesday (doc's appointment) I will be back on my feet again. Best thing is, my daughter was not affected by it.
My cousin Denise and her husband Carlos came into town, but not to visit my parents and I. Apparently there has been some issues with my aunt, uncles and parents. They had an argument and now they are not speaking to each other ... Did anyone remember it was my daughter's baptism this Sunday? Nope, not even the God-mother (my cousin Nise). Everything just went downhill and I had to suspend the ceremony. The whole idea of having everyone sitting at a church where they don't want to be, and not having peace or harmony in the air for this very special day, is not what my daughter needs, it's not fair to me or her. So now, my heart is broken, the family I thought I had were never here. They only care about themselves ... I am just going to stop here because this is getting too personal and emotional. All I have to say is that, once again, we are alone in this island.
Work is getting more and more stressful. Luckily I had this week off, because of my sickness. I don't think I can keep up with it anymore. Now that my daughter is getting into the age of being able to attend a daycare centre. I might have to get a full time job during the day and start looking for a daycare centre. The idea of that just scares me, leaving my daughter to strangers is not what I had in mind, but in my case I have no choice. At least daycare centres are licensed and most of them are very good. Let the search begin ...
School, I can't wait to get my career. I feel like it's at my reach, and all I need to do is jump up and grab it. It's there and waiting for me. I have a tour and interview next week at the institute. Hopefully I will start in 2007, this year is too late now.
My life is getting back into place. Life is okay now, I feel like I have worked so hard for it, and now it's all being rewarded. Thank you
But there is always that one "segment" missing. That little something that I need to give me a bit more strength. It's there, but I don't always have it to myself. Sometimes I think if that segment will ever come back, other times I wish for it so badly, it makes me cry. But when I see it, I just want to hold on to it, and never let go, because I've lost it.

Fear not for the future, weep not for the past.

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