Ramble 001
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So this is my spot, my little blog where I can type my thoughts and ramblings about my life, the way I see it, and how I live it. Unlike the other blog, this one will only be about myself ... but I may slip in a few things about my daughter. I can't help, I'm a proud momma! Anyway, off to my first rambling ...
My week has been awful. I've been sick for almost a week now, and my throat is still sore. I spent 2 days ... no 3 days in bed, only digesting liquids. But the bright side is, I lost 3 dress sizes, yay! I know that may not be the healthiest way to lose it but it wasn't my fault. I wasn't able to swollow solid foods. therefore lost some of the weight. Right now, I still get headaches and sore throat, but by Wednesday (doc's appointment) I will be back on my feet again. Best thing is, my daughter was not affected by it.
My cousin Denise and her husband Carlos came into town, but not to visit my parents and I. Apparently there has been some issues with my aunt, uncles and parents. They had an argument and now they are not speaking to each other ... Did anyone remember it was my daughter's baptism this Sunday? Nope, not even the God-mother (my cousin Nise). Everything just went downhill and I had to suspend the ceremony. The whole idea of having everyone sitting at a church where they don't want to be, and not having peace or harmony in the air for this very special day, is not what my daughter needs, it's not fair to me or her. So now, my heart is broken, the family I thought I had were never here. They only care about themselves ... I am just going to stop here because this is getting too personal and emotional. All I have to say is that, once again, we are alone in this island.
Work is getting more and more stressful. Luckily I had this week off, because of my sickness. I don't think I can keep up with it anymore. Now that my daughter is getting into the age of being able to attend a daycare centre. I might have to get a full time job during the day and start looking for a daycare centre. The idea of that just scares me, leaving my daughter to strangers is not what I had in mind, but in my case I have no choice. At least daycare centres are licensed and most of them are very good. Let the search begin ...
School, I can't wait to get my career. I feel like it's at my reach, and all I need to do is jump up and grab it. It's there and waiting for me. I have a tour and interview next week at the institute. Hopefully I will start in 2007, this year is too late now.
My life is getting back into place. Life is okay now, I feel like I have worked so hard for it, and now it's all being rewarded. Thank you
But there is always that one "segment" missing. That little something that I need to give me a bit more strength. It's there, but I don't always have it to myself. Sometimes I think if that segment will ever come back, other times I wish for it so badly, it makes me cry. But when I see it, I just want to hold on to it, and never let go, because I've lost it.
Fear not for the future, weep not for the past.
So this is my spot, my little blog where I can type my thoughts and ramblings about my life, the way I see it, and how I live it. Unlike the other blog, this one will only be about myself ... but I may slip in a few things about my daughter. I can't help, I'm a proud momma! Anyway, off to my first rambling ...
My week has been awful. I've been sick for almost a week now, and my throat is still sore. I spent 2 days ... no 3 days in bed, only digesting liquids. But the bright side is, I lost 3 dress sizes, yay! I know that may not be the healthiest way to lose it but it wasn't my fault. I wasn't able to swollow solid foods. therefore lost some of the weight. Right now, I still get headaches and sore throat, but by Wednesday (doc's appointment) I will be back on my feet again. Best thing is, my daughter was not affected by it.
My cousin Denise and her husband Carlos came into town, but not to visit my parents and I. Apparently there has been some issues with my aunt, uncles and parents. They had an argument and now they are not speaking to each other ... Did anyone remember it was my daughter's baptism this Sunday? Nope, not even the God-mother (my cousin Nise). Everything just went downhill and I had to suspend the ceremony. The whole idea of having everyone sitting at a church where they don't want to be, and not having peace or harmony in the air for this very special day, is not what my daughter needs, it's not fair to me or her. So now, my heart is broken, the family I thought I had were never here. They only care about themselves ... I am just going to stop here because this is getting too personal and emotional. All I have to say is that, once again, we are alone in this island.
Work is getting more and more stressful. Luckily I had this week off, because of my sickness. I don't think I can keep up with it anymore. Now that my daughter is getting into the age of being able to attend a daycare centre. I might have to get a full time job during the day and start looking for a daycare centre. The idea of that just scares me, leaving my daughter to strangers is not what I had in mind, but in my case I have no choice. At least daycare centres are licensed and most of them are very good. Let the search begin ...
School, I can't wait to get my career. I feel like it's at my reach, and all I need to do is jump up and grab it. It's there and waiting for me. I have a tour and interview next week at the institute. Hopefully I will start in 2007, this year is too late now.
My life is getting back into place. Life is okay now, I feel like I have worked so hard for it, and now it's all being rewarded. Thank you
But there is always that one "segment" missing. That little something that I need to give me a bit more strength. It's there, but I don't always have it to myself. Sometimes I think if that segment will ever come back, other times I wish for it so badly, it makes me cry. But when I see it, I just want to hold on to it, and never let go, because I've lost it.
Fear not for the future, weep not for the past.
Claudia, I understand how hard it is to be a single parent. I was there once too and it is not easy. I wouldn't have been able to do it without God helping me through. I will pray for you that He will make a way for you and things will start to look up. I am sorry to hear about your family. I also know from experience how hard it is when family is feuding. I am praying that that also will be resolved. Just remember God loves you and wants the best for you and if you can trust Him, He will always make a way. Take care.
Posted by
footsack |
Tue Aug 08, 11:01:00 a.m. 2006
You're in my prayers Claudia... good luck with everything. Hope you're feeling better by now...
Posted by
Sarah |
Tue Aug 08, 11:17:00 a.m. 2006
Hey Claudia. Sometimes things are just tough. I hate it too, and being sick doesn't help, everything seems so much worse.
I'm praying for you, and know that God really has a plan for you and Naima that includes giving you the desires of your hearts. I'll be praying that you see those desires come soon. And that you feel better.
Posted by
Melanie |
Thu Aug 10, 01:40:00 p.m. 2006
I am so blessed to have you all in my life.
Thank you so much for giving the support I need. You are all in my heart, and I miss you so much.
Posted by
Claudia |
Fri Aug 11, 08:16:00 a.m. 2006
It's hard when family doesn't get along. I hope one day they can all realize how much family means, and how precious they are to each other.
Sorry to hear you were sick!! I was sick like that one, I was bedridden for a full two days, and when I did get out of bed, it was only to grab a blanket and lay on the couch and attempt to eat a couple of crackers. Maybe I need to get really sick, I could use losing three dress sizes in three days! :P
Posted by
Unknown |
Tue Aug 15, 11:59:00 a.m. 2006